Here it is; my first blog post! Takes off screaming in terror into the night.
Today is my blog launch, and I feel like I’ve been strapped to a huge rocket about to take off into space. I’m aiming for the moon, but I’ve got no idea where I’ll end up, or how wild and bumpy the ride will be.
As I drew this piece, I asked myself, “Am I in the rocket?” But I didn’t feel protected, I felt exposed, so I chose to leave the owl on the outside.
Writing is baring. To put ourselves out there for the world to judge is scary.
What if people hate what I write? What if they don’t like my characters, what if I’m not ready? What if I fail?
As we grew into adulthood, we learned to hate that word, fail, with a passion. We’re not as inclined to try new things, just so we don’t deal with failure. We too often forget how mistakes are an intricate part of the learning experience, and as debut writers we have to remind ourselves of it every day.
One of my favorite quotes ever is Samuel’s Beckett: “Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better.”
The scandalous idea that there are different degrees of failure was entirely new and helped me tremendously. But inspiring quotes don’t suffice when you’re going through a rough patch. We need a support system because bad days are bound to come around, and no one can do this alone.
Bad days come in many shapes and forms:
- The obvious, “I got a rejection letter/tweet/text/email/pigeon…”
- The almost worst, “I got no response, they must hate it.” Hits refresh until my fingers bleed.
- The treacherous, “I spent my day lying on the sofa (or doing XYZ), and guilt is tearing me apart.”
- The heart-breaking, “I’m missing XYZ because I spent the day writing, and I’m not good enough.”
- Don’t get me started on illnesses, or trouble at home/work.
We all have good and bad days; it’s normal. I discovered even published writers (the cool kids club we’re desperate to get into) have off-days.
My support system includes family, friends, and writers on a similar journey. The writing community is generous and kind to beginners. (Ever played online games? Those guys will chop your head off for being a newbie, ah ah.)
Chasing a dream is stressful, but remember to have fun.
This blog aims to be a confessional as I navigate the deep and treacherous waters of the publishing journey. If it helps you; good. If it makes you laugh; even better.
I hope we can share the good and the bad together and push each other through the bad days.
What do you do when you need to brighten up? How do you deal with the guilt when you skip a week or don’t attain your goals?